Success (sorta)

I successfully (sorta) survived my first day back in the empty nester world. My DH had a very long day at work, so I was alone from the time I woke up until about dinner time. The house was startling in it's quiet-ness. Even the dog knows that things are different now. She just laid on the floor, close to me no matter what room I was in. I had to run out to the grocery store to pick up dinner fixins' and she acted very worried when I grabbed my purse. Monroe, my grand-fish is gone as well. He went back to school with C so I don't have the morning routine of feeding and chatting with him while I drink my coffee anymore. Things change so much in the blink of an eye. I guess I was "successful" in surviving in the way that I didn't sit in her room and cry all day, but the "sorta" part was more telling. I got things done. I did my regular chores. I did my regular sewing. I did my regular cooking. But there was something alive and vibrant missing from those things. My daughter is a wonderful young woman. Caring, compassionate, sweet, loving, funny, loyal, smart, beautiful and with a helpful spirit. When she's home, there's not a chore that I set out to do with out hearing "Momma, do you need any help?" Today, that spirit was missing along with the stupid inside jokes and movie quotes and random dance breaks and all the other stuff that we do that no one else gets. My heart hurts because I miss her but more importantly my heart hurts because it's bursting with pride and love for her. She is becoming a successful young woman with good friends surrounding her and a goal in front of her. I did a good job and that makes me happy. From here on out, everything else in my life is gravy. I was blessed with the loan of two amazing people. I raised them and then gave them back to the world. I am a lucky woman. But I sure miss them

deb

My last day with C. The summer went so fast. Today will be spent packing and cleaning and trying not to cry. We leave by 8 in the morning to take her back

It's Getting Hot Out Here

When I log into my account to post a blog (which I've been meaning to do) it tells me when the last post was made. June 28th, I believe it said. That's just too long. At that point, we were living without the big a/c unit. We went without the big unit for a couple of weeks, and then a friend of mine offered the loan of a portable a/c unit for our bedroom. It has been pretty awesome. I learned that we could conceivably live without a/c, but I'm really glad that we don't. Especially these last couple of weeks. We are in the dog days of summer. Temps over a 100 every day and not a cloud in the sky. The sun is just beating down on Texas baking everything. It sucks the life and energy from you and all you want to do is take a nap. Which sucks because now is the time when I should be getting my fall garden set up. I have beds to weed and re-plant along with all the regular yard work, plus I'm slowly digging up plants and laying down cardboard and mulch in the front to get ready to plant my new edible landscaping this winter or next spring. Plus, I had planned on painting my house this summer. I've just been staying inside and ignoring the outside but I realized that I have to cowboy up and just get things done, so one task in the morning and one task in the evening will have to get me by until it starts to cool. Last night I worked on mulching the front yard and this morning I weed whacked in between the veg beds so I can at least get out there and work and not have to crawl through the long grass. Tonight, I think I'll plant some pumpkins in the old corn bed. I left the stalks in there so it will shade the soil a little to give the seeds an opportunity to germinate. hmmmm...maybe I should start the seeds indoors and just put the plants out in a few days. That might work better. The other task I was going to have C help with is to wash the rocks in the bio filter. It's getting a little clogged up in there and I'm losing water as it drains over the top.

I lost some plants due to the heat and lack of water, but with my gray water system up and running my pepper plants have survived, along with one watermelon plant and a few tomatoes. I will be cutting the mater plants way back and letting them start again for fall tomatoes. My garden wasn't quite as productive as I had hoped this year, but I'm learning (always) and next year will be better. It always is.

The broiler chickens were processed on July 22nd, so now I have a freezer full of delicious homegrown meat. I ordered a meat grinder attachment for my mixer and now I'll be able to make chicken sausage and such to help vary the ways to use the meat.

Seems like my thoughts aren't really flowing well today. Sorry about that. I'll blame it on the heat. :)

y'all stay cool

Perspective

Good Monday morning, friends,

today I'd like to discuss "perspective". Last week I got our first summer electric bill. I whined and complained and threatened to just turn the damn thing off and live in the back yard to spite the cost of cool air. Well, I guess the universe took me at my word, as the universe often will. Last night, our main air conditioner unit bit the dust. A little background on our house and the cool/heat system. Our home was built in 1907 (or there abouts). The house really is very similar to when it was built. The front porch was screened in somewhere in the 50s, the back porch was extended and turned into an extra room and the front bedroom was opened up to create on long front room and it serves as my dining room now. Other than that, everything is the same. Old floors (wood), old windows (double hung), doors everywhere, tall ceilings. This house was built to deal with the hot summers.

Back to the story. My first instinct was to get that familiar lump in my throat and fluttery feeling in my stomach. We can't afford to replace this particular unit right now and all I could think of was "OMG! It's only June...not even really hot yet for Texas". But then, things started to really fall into perspective. The main point being that people have lived (and still do) without a/c in this part of the world for centuries. They deal. They adapt. They work with nature to do so. And of course, I can't ever be satisfied with the explanation of "shit happens". There has to be some existential reasoning behind everything. Perhaps I was taking things for granted. Perhaps I need to learn how to live without a/c for some future disaster. Perhaps I need to spend more time outdoors doing things that I need to do instead of hanging out inside watching movies and sucking up cool air. Perhaps I need to take advantage of this situation to see where I need to improve things in the house (ie: insulated drapes for the windows, more ceiling fans, etc) Perhaps I just need to learn to adapt and make the best of things and still be thankful for what I've got instead of being a brat about things I don't.

This morning I got up early and went out on the front porch to drink my coffee and plan my day. I even got my husband to turn off the morning tv and come out and spend some time just being and chatting and enjoying each other's company. It was lovely. All my chores got done early and now I can sew during the heat of the day. C and I are setting up our summer kitchen today outdoors. I've been wanting to do that for a few years and never have b/c I never needed to. I love being outdoors and cooking outdoors, you'd think I'd have an outdoor kitchen set up year round! Well, now I will.

Since we don't have central a/c, C has a small window unit in her room and there's also one in my sewing room. We've closed doors in such a manner to create a cool area (bedrooms and sewing room) and it's fairly comfortable for sleeping and sewing. This could be a good experience for all of us. Best part? We're going to save a LOT of money this summer and that's always a good thing.

I've put it in perspective. Instead of thinking this is a disaster, I'm now thinking that I'm pretty stoked about it. Everything happens for a reason. We just have to roll with the punches and put things in perspective. Attitude is everything, and everything is a learning experience. It's also a chance to count your blessings and realize that you still have it pretty good.

Ok. I think I'm done. I need to go hang some more laundry. We have a 50% chance of rain, and I've found the second best way to ensure rain (1st is washing the car and leaving the windows down) is hanging 3 loads of laundry on the line.

ya'll stay cool and keep things in perspective

peace

Daring Bakers: Piece Montie

The May 2010 Daring Bakers’ challenge was hosted by Cat of Little Miss Cupcake. Cat challenged everyone to make a piece montée, or croquembouche, based on recipes from Peter Kump’s Baking School in Manhattan and Nick Malgieri.

Wow..ok, so I'm really glad that I don't bake for a living. While the group I'm in is called the "Daring Bakers", I'm really quite a timid baker. I love the idea of baking, but the execution just scares the hell out of me. Luckily, I have a great sense of humor and find most things funny.

This challenge started off badly, with me being so scared to do this that I stalled so long I'm 2 days late in posting, b/c I just now made the darn thing. The creme patisserie was easy peasy and I got a little cocky. The choux batter/dough was relatively simple, but when it came to piping it, it was kind of runny and they flattened out instead of staying perky and round. As I bent over to put the cookie sheet filled with the uncooked choux, the parchment paper made a break for it and slid off into the bottom of my oven, accordioning itself. I grabbed the edge of it and tried to unfold it and place it back on the cookie sheet. Some of it was still wadded up and some was not. I did have a second sheet with about 6 or 7 choux on it, so that went in the oven as well.

I lost about a 3rd of them, and most of the rest were dramatically deformed. But once you fill an ugly puff with delicious creme and then dip it in melted chocolate and stack them in an interpretive pile and glob the rest of the melted chocolate on top, if you can stop laughing long enough to give one a try, you will be quite pleased with the results. We (hubby and daughter and I) all thought they were quite tasty and I'll certainly try making this again. I learned a lot from this experience. The best thing I learned is that even if I mess it up, the earth is not going to come to a standstill. AND...it doesn't matter what it looks like if it tastes good.

sooooo.... ready for the picture? You have my permission to laugh. It's ok, I did.

We took 2 photos in the hopes that it might have a "good" side. It did not. I did, however, use a lovely vintage cake plate. That's gotta count for something, right? lol

Can't wait til next month....

peace (and chocolate cream puffs)

Deb

Toning up mind and body

Lately I've been allowing God to take control of my life. (A very dear friend gave me a book called "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore) That pretty much means I'm giving him all my baggage, and let me tell ya, there's a TON of it. It seems like such a simple and logical thing to do...giving away all of that stuff. It's much like de-cluttering your home. You attach too much meaning to an item, but once you break through that and get rid of it, you feel so much better and want to clear out more and more. You see the structure underneath. It's so....liberating! And as the saying goes, where your mind goes, so goes the body. I've noticed it's a ripple effect, actually. I started clearing my mind and making space for all the good things God has for me, mentally and emotionally. I start to feel good about myself and that motivates me to feel good about my physical form and take better care of it. So I've been getting up every morning and walking/running about 3 miles. When I get home, I'm full of energy and good feelings and that motivates me to want to feel good about my yard, so I spend much more time in the yard trying to get it back into shape and of course, the logical progression is that I wanna spend some time getting the house back into shape to go with the yard....It's one of those "give a moose a muffin" things.

Now, I know that I won't always wanna get up and run, and that the yard maintenance will sometimes be overwhelming and that tool I need to replace the gutters on the house will cost too much and that there's gonna be days when the anxiety takes a hold and tries to cripple me. But now I feel that I know how to fight it and push through it and maybe lose, but mostly win. And at the end of the day, I will know that I fought the good fight and that I didn't just sit there and do nothing which is the biggest defeat of all.

ps: for those folks who might be visiting this summer and feel like they're going to show up and the house/yard are gonna look like I have a professional landscape/home care service, be aware that it didn't get like this overnight, and it won't necessarily be cleaned up overnight. I'm just saying...

peace,

Deb

Being a Daring Cook

So, my daughter-in-law, M, has this food blog. She posts recipes and ideas a couple of times a week including hits, suggestions and photos of what she's made. I really enjoy reading it and it inspires me to pull out some new recipes and maybe not just have the same old thing over and over. Keep in mind that I love to cook and really enjoy new recipes. In the sidebar of her blog was this cute little button that said "The Daring Kitchen" so I clicked on it and was whisked away to a wonderful world of cooks and bakers that post a challenge monthly. Typically, it features a technique or an ingredient a lot of us would be unfamiliar with. I joined and got a little scared, but then, they posted the May challenge.

Our hosts this month, Barbara of Barbara Bakes and Bunnee of Anna+Food have chosen a delicious Stacked Green Chile & Grilled Chicken Enchilada recipe in celebration of Cinco de Mayo! The recipe, featuring a homemade enchilada sauce was found on www.finecooking.com and written by Robb Walsh.

Having lived in New Mexico and learning to roast and can my own green chiles was quite a boon for this meal. The sauce had to be made from scratch and featured roasted green chiles and tomatillos. Oh my goodness, it was delicious!

Here is the sauce recipe:

1½ pounds Fresh Anaheim chiles (about eight 6 to 8 inch chiles) 24 ounces 678 grams - roast, peel, remove seeds, chop coarsely. Other green chiles (NOT bell peppers) could probably be substituted but be conscious of heat and size!)
7-8 ounces Tomatillos (about 4-5 medium)212 grams - peel, remove stems
4 cups Chicken broth (32 ounces/920 grams)
1 clove Garlic, minced
2 teaspoons yellow onion, minced
1 teaspoon dried oregano
½ tsp Kosher salt (add more to taste)
¼ tsp Black Pepper (add more to taste)
2 tablespoons Cornstarch (dissolve in 2 tablespoons water, for thickening)

Green Chile Sauce

1. Put a medium saucepan of water on to boil and remove the papery outer skin from the tomatillos. Boil the tomatillos until soft, 5 to 10 minutes. You can also grill the tomatillos until soft.
2. Drain and puree in a blender or food processor.
3. Return the tomatillos to the saucepan along with the chicken broth, chopped roasted green chiles, minced onion, oregano, garlic, salt and pepper.
4. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat and then reduce the heat and simmer for 10 minutes.
5. Add the cornstarch/water mixture and stir well. Simmer, stirring occasionally, until the sauce is thickened and reduced to 4-5 cups, another 10-15 minutes.
6. Adjust seasonings and add hot sauce if you want a little more heat.

I saved a little of the sauce out so I can fix Huevos Rancheros for C, now that she's home from school. It's one of her favorite meals.

I had the option of baking the stacked enchiladas in one big dish or in smaller dishes, but I chose the big dish. Here's a photo:

I know it doesn't look like much, but it sure was tasty!

I'm really glad I joined in the fun and I'm looking forward to next month's challenge and also that of the Daring Bakers.

Peace,

Deb